Wake me up when September ends

It's September.

Happy September. Sad September. Lovey dovey September. And heartbroken September.

Maybe I should start my September chapter with this one stupid love story of mine.

Yeap, I fell in love, again. Actually, the second guy I fell in love with at UTeM. I can't say much about him but he's the only guy who is so not my taste but successfully makes me fall deeply in love with.

1. He's not that good looking.
2. He's talkative.
3. He has no manner.
4. He's a player.
5. He's not sensitive.
6. He's a bad tempered person.
7. He's a total flirt.
8. He can never be serious.
9. He hates commitment.
10.He's egoistic and arrogant.

And he's a person whom I can hate and love at the same time.

Many things happen in just a very short time. He shows his interest in me. So obviously that I guess other people can see it as well as I did too. And he admits he loves me.

Because of many things too, I don't think he loves me as much as I did. I don't think he can give me that much love. I guess he didn't trust me. I care about him though. I'm sensitive about his changes, his mood, his expression.

Did he care about what I feel?

No.

Because he's not sensitive. He's egoistic and he's arrogant.

He once said he'll change for a certain someone.

I was there for him but he didn't change at all.

That's enough answer: "I'm not that certain someone, am I?"

Every relationship has to grow or die. He's not willing to let it grow so it has to die.

And with that, I have lost this love.

Maybe he's not the right guy...




Please God,
if that person in my dream is real,
let him be my saviour.